I've got nothin'

Wow. Life has really through me for a wearl wind latly. Workin, schoolin, momin/sisterin, soccer game times 2 every saturday, tryin to get a 18 to understand that he has one free chance to pass his senior year, pondering weather i should buy a house or not. weather i should sell my car, weather to take classes this summer...IT'S CRAZY. Some times i find myself just talking to myself saying " just keep breathing." I know that this period of time that I am in is a huge blessing, but its hard. I guess no one ever said it would be easy, huh. Don't get me wrong I love my life, it just seem to be a little more than I can handle at times.

I resently found out that not only one but two of my sisters are prego. I am not sure how to handle this. I already have payton(my neice) and i am not sure if i am going to be able to completely spoil 3 kids all at once. One thing i am sure of is that i will somehow find a way to be the COOLEST aunt Heather they will ever have!

Well I guess that is all for now. . .

Opposite Ends of The Sprectrum

To day was probably the most interresting day that I have had in a while. I went from celebrating the life of an unborn childs life to a retirement party for my grandpa. It was just a weird day. One of my best friends growing up had a miscarriage on her birthday and they had a funeral for him today. Talk about sad! What a way to spend your birthday. I can't even begin to imagine what she is going through. My grandpa is retiring and they had a party for him today. It pretty much was a party of old men and very few women getting together and talking. I knew no one. I thought I might pick me up a man or something but once I got a glimpse at the crowd I decided that probably wasn't a good idea...lol

I also went to buy "beverage" makings and I didn't get ID'd I was a little excited because normally they won't even let me in the door without looking at my ID. I think it because I dyed my hair darker and it makes me look older and more mature. Also I look HOTT!! lol

Life latly has been all about focusing on fun. What can I do to have a good fun day? I am making new friends and just having fun. I am not going to lie going to school full time and working full time has not been what most people would call fun, but I am coping. I am trying to think outside of the box. Better yet, I am trying to live outside the box and having a blast doing it. Well I guess that is all for now.

Thats all for now.

Livin big in a small world!